Living the good life or die trying!

So I cried like I'd never cried before.  I felt pain that I'd never felt before.  And I never thought I'd make it through that aweful time.  But then...as it always does, life went on.  And I went on.  I realized that I wasn't going to die.  In fact, I actually found myself having fun.  For the first time in forever, I was having fun.  I was enjoying being me.  I wasn't worried about who I was suppose to be or how I was suppose to act.  I was me.  For the first time in a long time, I was just me being me.  I had found my strength again and god it felt good! 

I had forgotten who I was.  I had forgotten that I actually liked me.  I became so wrapped up in the world of another that I lost me.  It was my own fault really.  It was of my own choosing.  I guess I thought that is what love was all about.  How mistaken was I, as it only helped to kill the love that I once shared.

But now...I've healed.  I've moved on.  I am stronger, wiser, and healthier.  And most importantly, I'm no longer afraid.  I have found myself and I even found love again.  And this time it's so very different.  I never knew that this kind of love existed.  It's amazing and she is incredible.  She is showing me the kind of love I've always dreamed of.  The kind of love I thought I'd never have.  The kind of love I really didn't think existed, except maybe in the movies.

Thank you Baby, for loving me the way that you do.  For accepting me for me.  And for allowing me to love you the way that I do.   Last night you put my hand on your heart and said it was mine.  You also have my heart in your hands.  I will be good to it, I promise, as I know you will be good to mine.  I trust you completely. 

I love you completely.